So it has been awhile since my last post and I really have had an amazing time since finishing my masters at Fresno Pacific. I landed my dream job coaching college soccer at a great NAIA school and I was able to start the program from scratch which is a blessing and a curse all in its own.
I have without a doubt been blessed and everyday I am grateful for this opportunity and gift that I have been working so hard to attain. Now comes the hard pieces. I have been tempted by another school to leave this place and make a jump to another level. I am not one to look to leave so soon and nor did I really expect a call. Now that I have been teased a bit my curiosity is nagging me to look. I am not ego driven and I am not money driven although a bump would help. I am only interested in what is right from my wife and kids. My wife is an angel and has always supported me and pushed me to do better and has caught me and kicked my butt when needed and she believes that there is no harm in looking which I agree , BUT what if I am offered the position?? then what?? Do I leave this wonderful place ? or do I let this chance go by and pray I made the right choice? I am conflicted like no other and it's difficult. I always wanted to be where I am and over the last 5 years I have killed myself to be here. I am basically scared not for my well being , but only for my family's well being. I know I must go with my heart and that is difficult... In my time at FPU they never discussed this case and again I was not prepared for this at this time. The struggle is real...
I have without a doubt been blessed and everyday I am grateful for this opportunity and gift that I have been working so hard to attain. Now comes the hard pieces. I have been tempted by another school to leave this place and make a jump to another level. I am not one to look to leave so soon and nor did I really expect a call. Now that I have been teased a bit my curiosity is nagging me to look. I am not ego driven and I am not money driven although a bump would help. I am only interested in what is right from my wife and kids. My wife is an angel and has always supported me and pushed me to do better and has caught me and kicked my butt when needed and she believes that there is no harm in looking which I agree , BUT what if I am offered the position?? then what?? Do I leave this wonderful place ? or do I let this chance go by and pray I made the right choice? I am conflicted like no other and it's difficult. I always wanted to be where I am and over the last 5 years I have killed myself to be here. I am basically scared not for my well being , but only for my family's well being. I know I must go with my heart and that is difficult... In my time at FPU they never discussed this case and again I was not prepared for this at this time. The struggle is real...